Sam’s Fans 10
When S.M. died, back in 2009, I felt more lost than I ever had before. As I depicted in my second book, Sam’s Fans was the first thing that really helped me cope with all the death I had experienced. In the two years since I published Once in a Lifetime, I haven’t written about Sam’s Fans as much. I think in some ways, writing and more specifically editing that book, helped me to process my feelings and move forward in my life. This doesn’t mean that I’m not still going to events.
As of this installment, Sam's Fans is 10 years old! S.M.’s favorite dessert was ice cream. Every year on her birthday (March 15th), Sam's Fans hosts a social media campaign, in which everyone posts pictures of themselves getting ice cream with the hashtag #icecreamwithsam. In April every year Sam's Fans has an ice cream party to celebrate S.M’s and it’s “birthday.”
Last Thursday, April 10th, 2025, I left work at 3:45, drove to pick Paige up, and drove down to Kobolt to finish working on Greattastic Adventures 2. Once I had finished, we drove to Meadow Park Drive. Jeni’s Splendid Ice Cream is a shop that started locally, but it’s now in multiple states. Paige and I parked right outside of my parents’ house, and walked up to the Jeni’s at the top of the street.
When we were about to walk in, we ran into Finn and Jack, two of S.M.’s brothers. After we greeted them, we entered and said hi to S.M. ’s mom, Nikki, her mom, Patti, and her best friend, Mandy. Then we ordered our ice cream and sat down with them.
As we caught up, with everyone I looked down at the table and there was a sticker. The sticker had expanded the cellular Sam's Fans logo, put a ladybug in the 0 of the number 10 (a ladybug is a symbol of S.M.), and had the words, “celebrating a decade of healing” on it. I couldn’t help but smile.
S.M. has been gone for nearly 16 years now. And yet, when I tell people about her without fail they always say, “I’m so sorry.” This is always a bit weird for me because I never really know how to respond. S.M.’s death started one of the darkest periods in my life and I miss her every single day. But, in the last 10 years S.M. though her mother and Sam's Fans, has touched the lives of thousands of kids just like her! It will never be “okay,” that’s not how grief works. But I’ll tell you, she would be so happy with what Nikki has done in her name over the last 10 years, and that makes it a bit easier to live with.
Have A Greattastic Day and Be Safe
J. Mitchie Ulibarri
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